as usual

i'm all alone not doing anything in particular, just lazying around tossing and turning, hoping time will move faster that way, but it doesn't. i'm pretty much comfortable with the way it is now. i don't wish to change it for the time being. when i'm really on my toes, i'm really on my toes and when i have nothing to do, i'll just laze around. doesn't sound like a crime does it? without commitments, humans aren't that stuck up and serious. i like that idea. don't get stressed out too much. everyone needs a break once in a while.

take a break then!

i'm totally blank

why does 24 hours a day feels like there's only 16 hours to live? day and night are being shorter each day. time is so limited that everything needs to be done in a rush. it all just don't add up! and when we do have that little extra time, we run out of ideas on what to do. does that mean that we are losing excitement in life? how do we light up the spark? we tend to do the same thing day in and day out without even giving thought on whether we should keep doing it or just turning a new leaf? even if we decide to change, how long can it sustain? good times are hard to achieve when happiness is subjective. risk takers are idiots and people who plan are just plain boring. those who rely solely on destiny will end up nowhere, so what type of person should i be??

u

i miss someone

bits 'n' pieces

its almost a year. or has it already been a year? wow! how time flies.. familytime is long gone!
apart from that...... ,
i can still hear mum's shrieking voice piercing through my earlobes calling us siblings for dinner. but that was last year. around this time in 2008, we were knocked down by the fact that life's a bitch, and there were nothing we could do that would have changed it.
on another note, the only remembrance when i were still under supervision is actually my spiders! my sister freaked when she found out i got them, and after sometimes, she cooled down. and my babies now? they are FREAQIN HUGE!! n still growing =) hehe..
my scorps are all dead, too much heat, unfertilized bedding, n perhaps the non-organic tree managed to kill a few. damn!
my python is having a ball. he/she's as happy as any snake can be while being kept captive. eating well, sleeping well, coiling well, most importantly sizing well. god knows what i'm gonna get next. hehe. maybe i should get something for myself as my own housewarming gift! huh!
talking bout that. still waiting for $$$ and when i get it, i'm getting my own casa! no more refugee camp! LOL i want i want i want my own house. can forget bout buying new car and/or bike for a while =( how i wish i was rich filthy rich.

that's about it for now. till i think of what to write the next tym. goodnyt myself!

hungry

3.55 19/06/2010

hungry..hungry..hungry..
neverending work..work..work..
restless nights..
need energy to run..run..run..
lets get running..

Candy Tweaks

these past few weeks have been the hardest for me. i'm struggling to live day by day, but i guess i'm keeping up pretty well. thanks to past experience. afterall only those who have been thru hardship will appreciate life better. with limited time and limited resources, it's tough to do anything. i'm on my own now, i opt to be this way, this is life by choice! i'm glad i did this, otherwise i will always remain as somebody else's shadow. life's like a candy, the sweetness will only last for so long. it really comes down to how much candy can u consume in a lifetime. even after a while, u'll get sick of sweetness and resort to diabetes, that's when u know u need to stay away from d sweetness for a while, mayb forever. but it doesn't mean that u can't enjoy another candy ever for the remaining of your life.

a guy never admits that he's lost.

but i'm not those guys. i'm lost. lost my sense of direction in life.